It has been quite some time since I have posted. To be honest, I haven't even thought about it much lately. Since I have some down time, I suppose I could bore myself and a few others with the small happenings in my life. Since the beginning of February, I have been working at the care center in Centerfield. It is a far cry from easy, but the longer I work there, the more I build my testimony. Partly from all the trials I find myself facing, but mostly from the sweet spirits that I care for. Some days I would rather run out the door screaming than answer one more call light, but by the end of the day, they make it all worth it in one simple way or another.
Also in the last couple of months, I have considered serving a mission. Ever since I was little, I always told myself that I would serve a mission if I weren't married by the time I turned 21. Somehow I always seemed to think that it would be more likely for me to be married by that point in my life. As my 21st birthday draws closer though, it seems less and less likely. (I'm not quite 20 yet, but still.) Here's where the plans get tricky. Although I would like to serve a mission, I would also like to finish my degree so that I can start my career. (As I type this, it seems less and less important to start a career.) It's still something that I find rather important. Another thing that I have dreamed of since I was a small girl was having my own house to myself. I could have all the animals I wanted (who needs a man anyway, right?), no parents or roommates to please. It would be lonely, but it would also give me a sense of accomplishment. Pinterest also has a part to play in this. (It would be fun to try some of the decorating ideas!) Have you ever come to a point in your life where you would likely be satisfied with a number of different outcomes? That would be me right now. It's frustrating to not know what all I want with my life, but also I find it good to be flexible. (Do I seem to be rambling?)
Another topic of consideration for this crazy thing I call my life, I realized the other day that I don't really know what I want in a future husband. Oh, I want all the important things, you know, like a return missionary, active in the church, loves me unconditionally, and the normal things like that, you know, like most LDS girls are looking for. I realized today though, that I don't have anything that I'm looking for specific to me. Some girls want a man who will maybe go with them on their run everyday, or something like that. (Okay, I realized I told a little lie. One thing specific I want is someone to cuddle and watch Criminal Minds with.) But other than that I'm drawing up blanks. It's funny the little things you notice when you don't have much else to do but sit with your thoughts.
As for what I'm planning on doing with my life, (in case any of you care,) I'm going back to Price the first week or two of August. I'm only taking one class, and kind of have my job back at the museum. I'm going to apply like crazy to all the care centers and other suitable job choices that I can think of. Maybe having two jobs will better help me to afford more than one class in the spring. I'm rather excited to gain my small fraction of independence back. :)
Am I boring you yet? I'm beggining to bore myself. I suppose that would be a significant sign that now would be a pretty good time to end this post. Happy Monday evening to all!
